Emotional Junk

They say that dreams are manifestations of your subconscious mind, your emotional junk during the day that your waking self can't deal with.

For the past few weeks, I've had a nightmare involving a formerly dear guy friend who betrayed me as a friend, then shacked up with an innocent girl friend of mine out of revenge when I excluded him from my life and whom I wish neither ill or good as long as he stays out of my life where he belongs, one involving me not getting an internship, and me furiously applying for everything, and wasn't in time, with a girl friend named Anis, a girl I haven't spoken to or seen in years.

My emotional junk.

As it turned out, I successfully nailed an internship with Gan, Ho & Razlan Hadri for December. I was kindly refused an internship for UNDP Malaysia because they're not looking for any interns at this time, and Wong & Partners needed at least 3 months ahead notice. Not bad lah considering I only applied to 3 other law firms (didn't have time to fax/call more) =p I'm probably going to start dreaming about my final sem results and application to L.L.B Hons soon, cause honestly it is my primary fear right now.

As for Anis, I guess she represented my past, a symbol of the then Chibi, who was a completely different person than Azira is today. My secondary fear.

As for HIM. Ah, he's just something that would fade away with time. Time heals all hurts, they say, and mine will, eventually. Friendships are supposed to be about loyalty, trust and love, but things don't always work out the way we wanted it to. I'm just grateful for Alan and Amirul.

Adilah's funding work is going on smoothly. =) Life is Alhamdulillah, good.