Oh, Exams...

• UiTM is tough on us LLB part 1 students. We have no study week, and straight from ongoing assessments the entire semester to exams, of which the 5 papers have only 2 days between them for studying, which is not enough time for understanding, memorizing and grasping the optimum ability to apply law principles.
• I was so mentally exhausted after the fourth exam paper today I slept from 2pm and just woke up at around 8pm.
• The positive side is that exams finish after roughly 2 weeks only.
• Btw, did I mention that after these exams we have more classes and assessments until the end of November? It means, that this semester, instead of the July-October semester, we have a July-November system. 5 months of gruelling, no-remuneration work, I must add.
  
• If anyone kutuk UiTM law graduates, I'll piss on them big time. CLP students don't go through this kind of gruelling schedule that we do. Neither does UIAians or students from UM. I know cause I have friends who go through those programmes and boy do they have it easier than we UiTMers do.
• Dear Allah, please make me smarter and more efficient.
  

Musings

• Laughter. Love. Life. My three L's. =)
• If I could take back the hurt, I would. If there is anything I could do to make it alright, I'd do it. Thing is, I cannot pretend to be something I'm not, or feel something I don't. I can only be what I am, and say what I feel. Know that I care, and that you're in my heart always, even tho I cannot love you the way you want me to. It's the best that I can do.
• Exams. The one thing I wish I could live without. *sigh* but trudge on, I will. Survive, I will. Plunge myself into a flurry of reclaiming my social life, I WILL!!!!
• For some odd reason, I wish my parents are here. At the very least, I won't have to wake up every morning to a wet nose in my face or a gentle nip on my toe. I love my babies, but surely there are limits and respect for a mother's need for sleep! Cheeky little brats!
  
• Life is complicated.
  

Musings

1. I forgot my phone to work today. LOL. I'm sorry guys.
2. Convey file due tomorrow, I've done my part but tgh gigit kuku waiting for the editing and compiling process since I volunteer to print it at home (firm printer/my ancient and beloved printer since Pre-Law) is busted. Seriously. Need to purchase a new one.
3. Rasa agak bahagia sebab my assignments are on track, now all I have to do is finish off my notes for Remedies, Evidence, and Civil. ^_^ Then can compile memorizing notes and buat past years.
   
4. I need to totally do mindmapping again. My brain's processing and memorizing power has been affected lately. I got my eye fixed on a star in the sky, tho, and I'll never waver. Never again.
   
5. I am SO SO SO looking forward to the Law Dinner. Guess what, it's on the 13th of October. ^_~
6. I'm also looking forward to this Saturday. Finally I can raya with a clear mind, kerja dan test dah settle!! Test lama sikit so can poof a bit. Dood ti dood~~

Random

1. I wish I'm the graceful type. I have given up all attempts on being proper and ladylike. Instead, I shall be goofy, curious, happy go lucky, child-like, freaky, wacky and screw longgar. But wait, I am already liddat meh.
   
2. I can't imagine myself as a wife and mother. That'd be WAYYY to freaky. Maybe I'm a registered spinster for life.
   
3. The above statement does not mean I don't have any aspirations on both (gracefulness and mother/wife attributes). It's just that I'm not mature yet, perhaps?
4. I don't have a home. I do have elderly parents, and a warm place to go back to in Ampang. It's just, it no longer feels like home, and I don't know why.
5. I am a restless soul.
   
6. I dwell too much on negatives.
7. I ordered a new laptop to replace Chrysta, since she is too old already...but I'm going to keep her anyways, so I'll have three laptops. Btw, it's from my own savings x_x.
8. Why nothing amuses me anymore? It's like walking through bland and colourless scenery. I knew I should've continued ignoring him. /(>_<)\ It's driving me nuts.
9. I miss Sania & Dyla, loads. Loads. Loads!
10. *decides to drag Muiz & William for lepaking session one of these days*
11. *laughs at self*

This, dears, is what happens when one is comfortably in solitude and reflects on self.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

>(^_^)<

Just A Lil' Note

Yesterday I buka-ed with SSPians at Flaming Steamboat, part bachelorette party for Che Su who's getting married next week, and part reunion thing for us Glace Gladiators. Since the usual klutz that is Azira forgot to charge her phone, no photos here, but those which will be added by Hana and gang in facebook later.

It's amazing no matter how many years go by, distance, time, university, homes, state of parents' marriage, etc...we're still together no matter what.

I love you girls, now and always.

The Darn Things that Men Say

Him : "I'm going to have a tattoo of a star for each of my mom, my dad, my two children, all on my chest and connected."

Me : "Okay, kinda sweet but what about your wife, kesian kena tinggal..."

Him : *looks down south and looks up at me smiling cheekily* She's going to have the brightest star of all.

Me : "Sengal!!!!"

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Him 2 : "Azira, I'm sorry I didn't come to your coconut party"

Me :"Tu la... I know you tak sudi datang."

Him 2 : "But Azira, I want your coconut!"

Me : *ROFL* !!!

Maxis Broadband

What's the point of me subscribing to the fastest speed when it disconnects ALL THE EFFING TIME despite paying the bills on time?

Laundry Shop behind DIGI opposite UNISEL @ S.7

1. I am sick & tired of the appalling attitude of this stupid Laundry beside the Religious Kindy & behind the Digi mobile phone shop opposite of Unisel at S.7 Shah Alam near my house. They discoloured and completely ruined two of my WHITE blouses, and lost the buttons to THREE of my shirts!!! I discussed this nicely with them and the STUPID STAFF still does the same IRRESPONSIBLE ACT to my clothes. Nak buat kedai dobi buatlah cara kedai dobi bodoh!!! Mentang2 budak LLB mmg pening fasal file yang tak sudah2 and assignments & stuff SUKA HATI DIA JAHANAMKAN BAJU AKU!!
2. Obviously I am advertising. DO NOT UTILIZE THEIR DOBI SERVICE. ROSAK BAJU, STAFF ASYIK MUKA MASAM, cakap baik2 tak makan saman.
3. Therefore, I vent my justified anger as a consumer.
   

On Life...

• Everything they warned me about LLB Hons in UiTM, it was true. It is true. It's miserable. I've never worked this hard casually in my life, not even for my thesis.
• I miss him.
• I guess I was never over him, after all.

LLB (Hons) ~ UiTM Shah Alam

• Wake up at 6am, arrive at faculty at 7ish, return home at 9-10pm exhausted. Today given assignment/test, in two days dah kena hantar...
  
• The usual battle for parking spots in UiTM resumes...
• I am happy to be able to be able to have lunch and hangout with Dzul & Eddy once in a while. ^_^
• Dapat kawan baru!~ Shaiful, Nurul as well as my other batchmates and some old ones... Yani, Wahida
  
• Sedih sebab Zu, Lydia, Dyla and Sania dah takde.
  
• Skrg cuti seminggu sebab H1N1 virus... 24th July - 2nd August... habislah byk workload balik nanti...
• We're supposed to visit the morgue and the Bar Council, but apparently not....
• Life is beautiful...
  

Of Love

1. I watched as one after another, he plays his tricks, observing as always, wrily wondering whether any of the flowers that he courts meant a whit to him. I wonder, as she smiled her sweetest smile, and he appreciates another small victory, that they knew that they are replaced, one after another, as the wheels of time turned endlessly and I stayed. I shook my head in trepidation, wishing one kickass woman would teach him a lesson, and returned to my conversation, rolling my eyes mentally, thinking 'Men as friends are true, but as lovers they are intolerably untrustworthy'.
2. And my homies wonder why I remained single?
   
3. Another one, another day, my tongue dry against my teeth, my lips unmoving. What am I supposed to say? He who I last loved shriveled my heart dry of any longing for those kind of feelings from men, forever sealing my emotions to indifference. For fear of separation, I dare not initiate, a coward you may call me, but at least one with an eased heart. I live for the love of my family and friends, nothing more, nothing less.
   
4. And I find joy in giving what little there is left in me. It is enough, for now.

Good & Bad

1. OMG my convocation ceremony is on 2nd of June in the morning. I'm going to wear a robe, the silly flat hat and everything! *excited*
2. WTF is my Maxis Broadband ZTE not working, padahal my dad dah bayar. 
3. I felt sad leaving Gan, Ho & Razlan Hadri. I really loved working there. (mmg dasar workaholic). They threw me a party. =) *syg all her Masters and the clerks there*
4. Yes my dearest friends from UiTM, Azira now looks like a girly girl. Why on earth would that bother you? Sheesh. I'm still the geeky nerdy kid who reads politics, only with better clothes and make up. So what?
5. Ena's getting married today. =) Or actually it's her reception. *sigh*
6. 
   

Owl

I feel like an owl who pines for the moon, constantly yearning, constantly searching for the unattainable.

Who or what is the moon?

I myself do not know.

Light Bits

1. OMG CC is a BOY!!! How did I miss THAT? I was playing with them after work as I always do and then it hit me, my baby has balls... =_=
   
2. I have the flu.
3. I am in love with Upin & Ipin. I swear. I want kids like them someday!!!
4. Nak tgk movie, nak tgk movie, nak tgk movie, and I'll pay my own expenses. Jom! Nak tgk Hugh Jackman's Wolverine! Nak tgk He's Just Not That Into You! Tapi, I have so much still to do... x_x
   
5. I have decided to paint Bupu metallic pink!~~~ I'll send her in Saturday! ^_^